Not sure where I read it, it was sometime last week. The author of an article was saying that very often when something stops us, we can view it as an obstacle or use it as an excuse. When you can't do what you want to do because of something getting in the way, do you keep looking for creative ways to go around it (in this case it's an obstacle) or do you let it stop you and give up (in this case it's an excuse)?
Today I've taken the bull by the horn. While I committed not to do anything to force clarity about my life plans, there was still some worry, thoughts and feelings that I felt somewhat dis-empowered by. I decided to walk my talk and do what work best in such cases: run a few Harmony Integration processes to bust through all the things, thoughts and negative charges that have been stirred up by not having a job starting December 1.
A few days ago I got news from my boss that starting December 1 I will need to look for a new position. Layoffs. I can get back if I want to March 1, but between December 1 and March 1 I get to figure something out.
Surprisingly enough when I heard it I felt mostly excited and happy, a little worried and not at all upset. I felt I was ready for something new and sometimes I need a kick in the butt to move forward when my life if too comfortable. When I went on my vacation to Mexico couple weeks ago I set the intention to finish a chapter in my life so when I get back into my life I will start a new one, and everything that doesn't serve me in my life has to go to create space for what is best aligned with me. Well, I didn't realize job might be one of that. Be careful what they ask for :)