A few days ago I got news from my boss that starting December 1 I will need to look for a new position. Layoffs. I can get back if I want to March 1, but between December 1 and March 1 I get to figure something out.
Surprisingly enough when I heard it I felt mostly excited and happy, a little worried and not at all upset. I felt I was ready for something new and sometimes I need a kick in the butt to move forward when my life if too comfortable. When I went on my vacation to Mexico couple weeks ago I set the intention to finish a chapter in my life so when I get back into my life I will start a new one, and everything that doesn't serve me in my life has to go to create space for what is best aligned with me. Well, I didn't realize job might be one of that. Be careful what they ask for :)
So since Monday I got through an interesting journey. I 100% believe that I totally manifested it and it will be good for me. First I felt excited and open to what's next. And when I did that all sorts of creative ideas started to flow towards me about different opportunities and directions I can take. Then I thought I need to do something to figure out what I want to do. I have lots of ideas of what I might be doing, but I need to settle on which ones I will actually commit to and take action on. It didn't take me long to go into the "doing" mode thinking I need to do something to figure out right now what the plan is etc. I put a lot of pressure on myself and started feeling very tense and unhappy and afraid of what if I won't be able to figure it out..
Tonight luckily talking with my best friend Demola I remembered a few things that helped me get back on track:
So I decided to try an experiment: between now and the end of Sunday my main focus is to be happy and be in the flow and to not do anything specific to get clear or come up with the plan and see what happens. Will share the results after the week is over. :)
Celebrating the start of a new phase in my life!